the days get shorter, and my soul grows darker

its the feeling when you are so sad, it stops you from going about daily things in your life.
its starting to feel like you don't belong anywhere right after you finally started to feel good about yourself.
the desire to fit in and have friends has increased ten fold.
this need can only be explained because when i talk to people, i don't feel as bad.
i don't feel as alone.
and thats good, because when im alone, i think for too long, and i make it worse.

its the feeling in your chest when your heart is squeezed and when your throat burns and your eyes water.

i didn't have fun in that barn on friday, even though i really wanted to.
things seem less fun,
so much happiness and light is drained that all that is left is sadness.

i haven't made friends this year, i have people i know.
people from last year are moving on and branching out without me.
its really just a me problem, i guess, because everyone else is doing fine.

 

sì, mi sono depresso, grazie per avermelo chiesto.